To be the man you want to be

Its simple.
Men fight with the world,
they cant express opinions, they wont take the girl,
they'll do it for companions, the ones that they would lie for,
in the end the ones for him they wouldnt die for,
it takes maturity, for the insight,
you look within in themselves, will it hurt? it might
but thats expected when fightin your own demons,
stripped of equipment, you'll doubt for a minute,
the battle can be won, but you play the outcome,
you'll come to realize endulging your deepest scar,
soaking in your blood, and while your vision jarred,
a formidable foe will be unvailed- no surprise,
its he in the mirror that will look you in your eyes,
Its You.
be comfortable sparring with yourself,
you'll kill off the old remains, and become more adept
you'll beat your personal imperfections
and you'll find whats left,
is what you want for your future, far less in depth,
that You will be more clear, throught the aftermath of it all,
and all it would take is simple..
A Man with Balls.

Bein so successful...

Late night,
Flows Gold,
Chilled out,
relaxed Slow..
Where time goes
when youre tryna be successful.
No time
a.m.
p.m.
that be him
tryin
to IM
bein so succesful....
studios poppin
you pro
you ballin
money
fallin,
hunnies,
callin,
hits, you make em,
tracks, you lay em,
down,
like the officer's rules for the town,
always in a rush
never keep in touch
they love you so much
lead by the media you mush,
parents miss you oh so,
they be like oh no,
that boys too bad,
the medias got you had,
you a puppet to production
The Man's satisfaction,
You sell through seduction,
and bound by contraction,
you worried,
you hurt,
face down in the dirt,
you see what you have,
you miss what you had,
and now youre in the back of a black cadillac,
snortin crack, mad at the world
humanity you lack,
yo gurl you slap,
the one you first macked
and had loved way back
but now under attack
by a man
whos damned
she packs with one hand
the other ones limp,
cuz her wrist you clamped,
she departs,
emotionally scared,
physically bruised
you shamelessly view,
while you flippin to the news,
she confesses to abuse,
from a mind that you did lose,
the police is on the loose,
and they about to find you,
you click the power button,
then in the screen's reflection,
you see the young man that wanted all of this attention,
you tighten up your knuckles,
cussin,
the mirrors you punchin,
you create a noose and stand on a bucket.
You kicked it. Its done.

"I hope you had fun little one
yeah its stressful bein that successful..."

Acceptance

I am...
Black.
I do like fried chicken. I do like kool aid. Dont like Watermelon
I should never hold you to racism if you ever ask me if I love either or.
Why?
Cuz if I ask you the same the question, and you're white, you'll say you love it too.
Cuz I know very few people who dont like fried chicken or kool aid. thats the way it is.
I feel like im better than the white kids, not better than the black kids.
No, I'm not racist.
Its difficult to tell you why I feel that way. Maybe its because I feel I come
from a better culture than the white kids I go to school with.
But not true enough to my culture compared to the black kids I grew up with 7 years of my life.
I dont limit dating to just my race.
Yeah I do have big lips. I take pride in them.
No, I wont start talkin bout my penis cuz im black
Im from the south, but kinda grew up in Colorado. The way I talk is mixed between southern and normal
I am actually glad I am a little bit of both

I am...
An Athlete.
As a Junior in High School, I won State in Long Jump with a 21.10 1/2 jump.
I think thats absolutely stupid
A state winning jump should be 23 feet. At least
I constantly beat myself up for that.
I dont want people to think I'm a superior athlete because my competition wasnt the greatest.
I only won State for my school 5A class anyway. Other kids got better jumps in other classes.
Im willing to say that im not as good an athlete I want to be because I can apply myself further.
When I was younger, I let my color get to my head and already deemed myself a better athlete than the other color. Simply because I could.
That held me back from training
I never trained.
When I played basketball, I would play for fun in my free time. But I would never practice the aspects that I needed to perform like a star.
The led to me quitting basketball competitively.
I took up Track, and im now more mature and focused on the sport.
And realize I do have to train and edure pain to become what I want to be.

I am...
A Boyfriend. (currently anyway)
im a boyfriend to a woman I care a lot about.
She's helped me realize a lot of things.
the saying "opposites attract" does apply to us.
She is white.
I call her beautiful more than I do anything else.
because its true.
I wouldnt call her hot.
To me thats just demeaning.
you can hear anywhere that somebody is hot.
you wont here many people call a woman Beautiful. It truly is unique
We come from two very differnet cultures.
I met her on accident.
I can honestly say I love everything about her.
I love her for her perfections and her imperfections.
aint even seen her the past month. Been on vacation.
Trust me when I say I miss her.
She's taller than me. Puts me to shame academically.
Even athletically. She does cross country, basketball, track, and she swims
sometimes im amazed how she balances her academics and sports.
what I find most amazing is why she decided to put up with me.
Lol.
We recently started dating.
She'll learn that I'm a bit different to put up with...
definitely excited for our future.
Great kisser. You'll have to take my word for it.
Cuz you wont be finding out anytime soon.
she does this smile thing and scrunches up her nose when we talk.
I love that face haha!!
I can talk to her about anything.
I do want to say a lot more about her... but this is MY blog.
And shes my girl.
You dont need to know everything about her. ;)

I Am...
A nerd.
I like superheroes.
I love superheroes.
Still wish I was one.
Can distribute most well-known superheroes by Marvel and DC Comics
I really think its easy
But a lot of people dont know really.
love online games.
love video games in general really.
I preffer RPGs and Fighting games.
I have a uncle who always seems to beat me in most games :\
Dragon Ball Z: best cartoon/anime ever
Altho I dont really like any other anime
my girlfriend calls me Superman
helps me live my fantasy.

I am...
Sure
You dont feel like readin no more. haha.